upsetting weather

It has been pouring for the whole day. K called it a "everywhere rain". It's true. No matter where you hide yourself, you will be get wet from the rain. Such a depressing weather. Everything is wet and cold. After such a talk, I just feel cold inside-out. Only thing I can think of doing, is simply crying for her. I so much want her to be well, to be happy. She deserves the best from the world. She does. Science is not a easy world to work in. That's for sure. But nothing really gives them the right to ruin such a beautiful person, such a beautiful creature. I don't know what to do. For now, I feel so helpless. I have been through depression myself. Not a happy experience, to a point I didn't see the point of living, didn't see the meaning of living. Lucky enough, I got out of it, forcing myself to face everything and forcing at the same time myself to do something I have never done, something out of work, where I didn't feel confidence or anything myself anymore. Feeling myslef again could never be so beautiful, it's more like a new born feeling. Painful, but refreshing. But I don't know what I can do to help her out of this. So frustrating. I cannot install confidence, neither can I force her committee to be nice to her. Saying good luck is not a good thing to do anymore for her. It's a tough world. What exactly can I do to change it?? No clue at all...
Optimistically, everything bad will be over by the end of this month. I wish.
It's Jan 9th, 2007. Two months past so quickly.
I also wish, this is going to lead something happy in the future. I wish...